~Remember~

Don't forget me I beg
My knees bloody on the ground
I try my hardest, my hardest
But my hardest is yet to be found
Do you recognize that face?
Can you see tears through the rain I put myself in?
I need to get out of this place.
But please remember me...
I am dirty and cold...hurt and forsaken
I am lost and sold...forgotten and mistaken
My existence left to the dark
The back of the class I stay
Even if you see me smile the light she will fade
I will hug you, love you, be your friend
But still you will not see
What's become of me
And maybe one day when you look in the mirror
Though I am not dead my spirit will still haunt
Left in the dark
Now you remember...

~Without Reason~

Without reason I ask you to follow me and you listen

And whenever I'm alone in the dark you glisten

And sometimes when I forget who I am

You're still there again and again

So tell me friend,...why?

No matter what the scenario

You stay by my side...

A thousand steps could be taken

A million lives can be slain

But If I ask you to follow

You'll never look away

Without you I'm less than what I claim

Without you I may go insane...

Without you, my friend,

nothing makes sense

and everything is plain...

A {mutt} till I die

The Puerto Rican in me died when mi abuleo got shot
now it hard for me to say "hola"
And living with my mom was too much of a reality for me
so I had to go live with mi abuela
Sometimes I wonder if I should just go back to the projects because everywhere else
I just feel like a reject
If I'm not in school I'm at home isolated I just don't wanna look out my window
cause it makes me feel constipated...
Like I'm trapped in a mixture of cultures and I don't know which one should be let out.
Hearing names like spic and cracker.
There isn't a moment in my life when I feel like either.
Because who you are at heart may not be who you are at home.
And home may not be home but a house.
And you're waiting to move. I love you all but see you soon.
I gotta be myself.
I gotta get out of this doubt.
At heart I am mutt because no one can label me
I don't give them that control
And it pisses them off because the don't got a hold

See, I'm tired of living a lie...so like it or not
I'm a mutt till I die

Late night wishes

Sometimes at night I wonder why even devils are able to fly...
Why, twisted souls lurk the shadows of the night and
only the broken hearted are able to say everything will be alright.
How the color of blood is no longer a crisom red but the brightest green.
Green like the tallest tree or the most corrupt dollar.
Because every step I take on this world brings me closer and closer to a martyr.
Why bother?
When God's name always becomes a war.
And the dreams a little girl sleeps on...become; numb.
When asking for change is like asking for the death penalty.
And you think to yourself maybe it's up to me.
Up to me to take the stand and fight.
Up to me to make the darkness light...and...
change the world as we see it.
Because if you can't take that step you can dream it.
And if you dream one day you could go into a coma.
Never having to wake might change the world over....At least in your mind...
Time can fly but that would be a waste.
Like helping the devil (Old testament) hold open hell's gates.
Wait...take a step back. Retrack.
Maybe devils can't fly.
Maybe we're the one's that give them wings.
Fill our lives with things.
Things the devil himself made with bliss.
Saying; "Oh here you go pal, just don't tell God about this."
And with a wink you take it.
And maybe you make it...but one day you realize at night.
That yours wishes...they just died.

-The color of {hope} is green-

Green, green grasses surrounded by the tallest crystals of our world

Man kind made beauty scorn between its own guilt

What have you done? The trees whisper...

Im sorry...I whisper back

But can I say such words when it is I that dropped that plasticwaste

On mother nature's bosom...

Why are my eyes allowed to see such beauty

and my hands able to cause such disgrace?

Warm sun lighting up my window

Cold snow against the glass...

Red leaves fall in front... as flowers bloom beside

But the grass around isn't green

The soil beneath is not brown

The only color seen is a fading glimpse of hope

only we can make shine

-skulls-

  Skulls, skulls in my closest

  Dead bodies gone to waste...

  Left alone in the dark

  You'll lose yourself in that mask...

  Change your ways now

  After you bury those skulls...

  No one can know

  Because no one will understand...

  Skulls, skulls in my closest

  Dead bodies now where they should be...

  In the darkest of the night

  The dirt never looked so red...

  

   

Forget you~

      I know you care less

      So why should I care more?

      It's not the same...

      Because I'm not really in that picture

      Because you're in that doorway

      But you are not my friend

      Not anymore

      Because looking at you shows no connection

      Funny thing is you have no idea

      You realize nothing

      And why should you?

      This is not to a lover of the heart

      But to a lover of the bond

      A bond that bends

      A bond that turns

     But a bond that can never be broken

     I got your back whether or not you really have mine

    Words are just words

    And actions can just be played...

    I look for feeling

    And feeling isn't seen in one way

    So there's no where for you to hide

    Your eyes may not shine

    Your smile may crack

    But you will always remember

    And that's what pisses you off the most

    So you keep me lingering on to this bond

    Because you {need} to feel better about yourself

    And who better than me?

    Huh?...who better than me?