~Later~

~You wouldn't know a gift if it bit you in the ass
You want my forgiveness bitch well I'll see you at mass
Toss and turn shout and cry
I'll just smile and wave as I say good-bye
You finallly notice, a little late maybe?
Did you think I was stupid and let you play me?
Bitch, I did it to catch you
Now who you gonna go to?
You're outa options now
And forgiveness I won't allow
So take your punk ass else where
Cause with you, my existance, I will not share~

Even in {death}

Even in death I wait for you
My heart lingers in the air around you
My soul hants everything about you
But I am still the same
Time did not change me
Nor my feelings for you...
Maybe one day when you see me
You won't have to look into my eyes to know
Or hear it in my voice
My soul will be the whisper
And my heart the words
The only thing that scares me
Above all
Is that your heart is now frozen
And your soul lost
Because of me...

So I guess I grew up

Hehe, wow. I feel much better. Like the super glue holding my heart together isn't glue after all, but the very soul of my heart keeping it in tack. Like every word you have ever spoken wasn't so serious. My mind can be at ease and so can yours. Your words can put spells on others ears for mine are not your tools of self reasurrance any longer. I will no longer be that shadow lurking behind you. Waiting for you. Always there for you. I'm done with you. And as I said it once before; I don't miss you. And you do miss me. I smile and frown at this. But I still walk away for you are the very thing holding me back from me. That night you released me, I released myself. And it feels good. The chains you put around my wrists are broken, the shackles around my ankles rusted. I am free. I can walk, talk, feel how I want. There is no regret. Not anymore. Nor will there ever be. Even when times I look back. My heart does not yearn. And I am glad it doesn't. It is stronger then ever before. And I will use it as I please. I will not hold back...So I guess (in a sense) I grew up...:)

Do you think I have money for YOU?

College, college, college...
You think I have money for YOU?
I've been eating pancakes for dinner and paying vet bills with grocery money.
Do you think I have money for YOU?
I save up all the money I have to buy presents when I'm not having a Christmas of my own.
Do you think I have money for YOU?
I haven't bought new clothes in over a year...
Do you think I have money for YOU?
I barely have a job because I have to help out around the house.
Do you think I have money for YOU?
I live with my grandma but belong to my mother. She won't pay for college.
Do you think I have money for YOU?
YOU; who promises me a future.
YOU; who promises me safety.
Without money, YOU are not there for me.
Therefore, YOU, are a liar.
YOU are my biggest worry.
YOU are my worst fear.
And YOU, call yourself college?